There's this awful thing I do

Holidays. And what do people do on holidays? They eat. They eat all the time. And I sadly admit that I am one of those miserable people. It was so hard to survive christmas, ofcourse I couldn't resist the delicious meals and deserts. And now I feel bad. Why do I always eat like an animal on christmas? I have to stick to my plan and I have to loose weight. But it is so hard and sometimes I feel too weak and when I feel weak I eat.
There's this awful thing I do - when I am loneley and sad, I try to fill the emptiness in my heart with food, but it doesn't help, it makes me feel worse. And lateley I have been feeling like that a lot.
And it's all just because I have major problems in my personal life. If I was happy, it would be a whole different story. Then I wouldn't have this blog. But since I can't see happiness in the near future, I keep living in the past. And reality is just too hard for me to bare.